lazy days
of the summer make me wonder am I living my life the way that I wanna or am I just wasting my time with you with you on my mind you on my mind when you take a dive into the water it's always harder to see what's outside I'm in too deep I've been losing sleep kicking and screaming hoping that someone would see me drowning drowning drowning under you take a seat by the ocean take a sip of the potion that I mixed for you you're gonna wish you never knew all that I had to go through to get to the surface to find out my purpose wasn't it worth it and do I deserve this drowning drowning drowning over you still feels like I'm drowning still feels like I'm drowning feels like I'm drowning still feels like I'm drowning still feels like I'm drowning drowning without you
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Looking up at a perfect sky
I know you idealize But I need myself this time Cause I don’t wanna be the One you always dreamed of And I’m not one to wonder what it’s like When I’m in and you’re on the outside So please quit trying Cause I’m tired of you lying to yourself Say you’re fine but you’ve been acting like you’re anybody else it’s driving me crazy Cause you’re so amazing You’re so amazing yeah Walking through shadows Looking down when I had no one Don’t know what matters I’m too tired when I try to run And I wonder if you know what it’s like To be in while I’m on the outside So please quit trying Cause I’m tired of you lying to yourself Say you’re fine but you’ve been acting like you’re anybody else it’s driving me crazy Cause you’re so amazing You’re so amazing please quit trying Cause I’m tired of you lying to yourself Say you’re fine but you’ve been acting like you’re anybody else it’s driving me crazy Cause you’re so amazing You’re so amazing
you know it's killing me
can we fill the space between the emptiness in everything without a simple song to sing i know you would give anything to make it all feel good again we find ourselves in the same place we can't fake it if this is the end i see myself in the distance is anything different or is it pretend can we pretend the dance isn't done and the feeling's the same this is the last one i say the dance isn't done and the feeling's the same this is the last one i say but that's a promise i'll break all i need's a little hope to make it like it was before it's pouring down rain all over my face again we find ourselves in the same place like a broken record stuck when it spins take us back to the old days if anything frozen could ever bend we would pretend can we pretend the dance isn't done and the feeling's the same this is the last one i say the dance isn't done and the feeling's the same this is the last one i say but that's a promise i'll break
funny how the thoughts disappear
after a few beers a glass of wine we're having a good time having a good time having a good time still waiting for you here and after all these years remind you what it's like to be having a good time having a good time don't need no lipstick on for you to sing this song talking 'bout the real thing baby are you listening looking at the real thing darling yeah party at the real place you can wear your real face you don't have to see straight it's okay at the real place having a good time at the real place having a good time climbing up the ladder been drinking for hours and hours release the chatter in our heads a round of drinks for all our friends/ (originally: we won't stop drinking till we're dead) yeah yeah woo-hoo having a good time woo-hoo having a good time woo-hoo having a good time woo-hoo ooh yeah talking 'bout the real thing baby are you listening looking at the real thing darling yeah party at the real place you can wear your real face you don't have to see straight it's okay at the real place having a good time at the real place having a good time it's nice to not be alone or staring at you through the phone maybe i could hold your hand cause i'm thinking that you'll understand if we're in the real place you and i can celebrate we got no more time to waste darling yeah talking 'bout the real thing baby are you listening looking at the real thing darling yeah party at the real place you can wear your real face you don't have to see straight it's okay at the real place having a good time at the real place having a good time at the real place having a good time
looking for an invitation
cause my mind wants a vacation from the state that it's been in living in a fiction baby fairytale of a past life wanted us to last but i was in a different state now it's too late to go back you and i know that it's too late too late too late to go back and i and i and i know that it's too late too late too late to go back and i i- i know that living in a fiction baby i'm in a different state it's not the same but it's all okay yeah don't want it to be true i was crazy for you don't wanna be looking for an invitation my mind wants a vacation from the state that it's been in living in a fiction baby addicted to the daydream fairytale of a past life wanted us to last but i was in a different state now it's too late to go back you and i know that it's too late too late too late to go back and i and i (you) and i know that it's too late too late too late to go back and i i- i know that (living) in a fiction baby I've been living off of memories
I've been trying to feel your energy even though you're not with me physically you're making your way into my dreams we've got all these unresolved things call 'em feelings well I've been feeling like my world is getting quiet living without you don't know why I had to try it why did I doubt you if only I had listened we wouldn't have this distance we could be burning incense instead of burning bridges yeah ah yeah ah ah ah ah yeah ah yeah ah ah ah ah Los Angeles is on fire again and I said goodbye to all my friends but I kept you hanging by a thread said that I'd come back but I don't know when yet and my world is getting quiet living without you don't know why I had to try it why did I doubt you if only I had listened we wouldn't have this distance we could be burning incense instead of burning bridges yeah ah yeah ah ah ah ah yeah ah yeah ah ah ah ah maybe it's too late maybe I am wrong maybe we'll be safe maybe it's not gone maybe I can build myself back up and be someone you want to love cause I don't wanna keep burning bridges yeah ah yeah ah ah ah ah yeah ah yeah ah ah ah ah
safe when i'm inside
but as soon as i step outside the city eats me alive pretty palm trees from afar i picture me playing my guitar but it's been weeks been months been years all i need is fresh air natural light how did that become so f*ing hard to find stuck on the inside stuck on the inside trying not to cry they don't understand why i'm stuck on the inside riding in your car down broken boulevard you have my head my heart my scars three hours on the train's getting harder in this rain i don't wanna feel insane but i do all i need is fresh air natural light how did that become so f*ing hard to find stuck on the inside stuck on the inside trying not to cry they don't understand why i'm stuck on the inside of my of my mind can i get to you wanna be with you wanna be with you wanna be cannot get to you wanna be with you wanna be with you wanna be can i get to you wanna be with you wanna be with you wanna be whoa stuck on the inside, whoa stuck on the inside, whoa trying not to cry they don't understand why can't i get to you wanna be with you but i'm stuck on the inside, whoa
you still have my heart
i'm a shell of a woman just a chest with no heart just a head with no mind i am hollow inside dress me up just enough make me thin tilt my chin i'll be your doll if you want i'll be tall or be small if you want if you want i'm still standing here feeling kind of weird just watching crowds moving busily staring at me enviously i don't understand i'm a mannequin man i can't i can't live live like this all i know is emptiness empty this display and throw me away i'm a mess i'm dirty i've been tested and scuffed up can't protest cause i can't talk oh please you just like to mock me i'm still standing here feeling kind of weird just watching crowds moving busily staring at me enviously i don't understand i'm a mannequin man i can't i can't live live like this all i know is emptiness empty this display and throw me away all i know is emptiness empty this display throw me away mannequin
remember how we used to play outside
till the sun would hide behind the trees we'd write jokes as we spoke make everything rhyme laugh until we were weak those are the memories we'll hold onto while we search for somewhere else to belong to we dream of a day when we could get away go back to the place where life was play we know in our souls we'll never grow old don't want to let this go but we didn't know our paths are parting our lives are slowly starting to take shape but we liked our lines curved before we heard we had to change and make them straight just do what we're told take the mold of those who lead but they don't seem to understand what we really need we dream of a day when we could get away go back to the place where life was play we know in our souls we'll never grow old don't want to let this go but we didn't know didn't know we didn't know didn't know we'd dream of a day when we could get away go back to the place where life was play we know in our souls we'll never grow old don't want to let this go but we didn't know
i'm tired of
spending everyday wondering which way to go i've been looking up i've been looking out i don't know about this road i'm on it and it's too late i'm worrying worrying i can't do anything to change this i can't do anything to change this there's gotta be purpose purpose for me there's gotta be purpose purpose for you we will find if we open up our minds then we'll see there is clear purpose purpose for we aren't you tired of getting hung up feeling unloved being stuck being stuck can't live in the past gotta make it last this is life we have we have we can do anything and change is the only thing that never changes there's gotta be purpose purpose for me there's gotta be purpose purpose for you we will find if we open up our minds then we'll see there is clear purpose purpose for we |
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